Smithereens

Tomorrow I have a meeting to discuss giving my testimony, and I am nervous! 

I'm nervous for so many reasons...

I hate talking in front of a lot of people. 

I'm scared that people who THINK they know my past may be in for a rude awakening.

And most of all, I am scared to be vulnerable. I don't tend to open up to many people. Like, at all. And this wouldn't be just breaking out of my comfort zone. This would be taking my comfort zones and blowing it to smithereens!!

Sharing my testimony, where I came from and how God's changed me and used me, is something I KNOW He has put on my heart. 

But I am nervous. 

Here goes nothing...

Love your little ones.

Today I went to a funeral for my friend's grand daughter. 

She was born Decmber 12th, 2013 and went home to be with Jesus on January 20th, 2014.

Her parents and my friend's family are all Christians, and are finding hope in the fact that she's hangin' with Jesus. But there's nothing more solemn than an infants funeral.

Today is a short post, because to be perfectly honest, it's been an emotional day.

Love your little ones everybody. Love your little ones.

Unpacking.

Do you ever make a "to-do" list for your life, and then realize you haven't done anything on it?

Today was a self-analyzing kind of day. I have things I want to do with my life. Some things are pretty big, and some things are fairly small, but all important... at least to me.

Did you know, sweet reader, that I still have boxes I haven't unpacked? I've lived in this house since the middle of July, and while I have let the world believe that I have settled in, I haven't. I have unpacked boxes, empty book shelves, and clothes still in the suitcases they were moved in. It's crazy really. I know that... 

Today I've been thinking about why I haven't settled in, and I'm still not sure. I love the house. I love my room mate. Everything is great.

It must be something internal...

I'll figure it out one of these days.

When do parents become friends?

Today something interesting happened. 

I am 24 years old. I will be 25 in early March, and I can't believe it. I remember my 10th birthday like it was yesterday, but somehow...somehow the years have just flown by. It's been a whirlwind of adventures, jokes, stories, memories and more. Do you remember being a kid? Your parents telling you to go do something (or to stop doing something) and you'd either listen or you wouldn't. The situation would play out, and every lived happily ever after??

Well, at some point, something changes. There's some invisible line; some unknown point where you cross from "kid" into "adult" in your parents eyes. It's a strange moment... surreal almost. But today was my day. My mom and I went to lunch, and instead of talking to each other as mother and daughter, something was different. We talked about real problems and real answers. 

It was strange and awesome at the same time.

Welcome to adulthood Whitney Elizabeth.

Welcome to adulthood.

Thank you for being a friend...

My favorite show that has ever been on television is.... wait for it...

The Golden Girls.

I'm sure this sounds a little crazy or stupid, but I love The Golden Girls. Have you ever emotionally invested yourself in a TV show? I realize this, again, sounds stupid. But I just love this show. Blanche, Sofia, Rose and Dorothy taught me little life lessons in a way that made me laugh. My grandma and I used to watch it together and laugh for hours! The stories were cute, and the people relatable. 

Did you watch Golden Girls my dear reader? 

Thinking back on it, do you smile? :)

Just sayin... fave show.

Courageous

Random thoughts for the day. 

I was driving home with my phones itunes on shuffle, and that song "Courageous" cam on. Have you ever listened to the lyrics in this song??

"We were warriors of the front lines, standing up afraid. But now we're watchers on the sidlines while our families slip away."

Every time I hear these couple of lines, it hits home. Do you remember the moment you gave your life to Christ?? Wasn't it the greatest moment you've ever experienced?? After that moment, didn't you just want everyone in the world to believe and have the same love and grace you'd experienced??

But then real life hits. Troubles happen. Work gets busy or school gets difficult, and you start to lose the drive. You start to lose the internal need to see everyone you know and love get into the same relationship you've found with Jesus. You become complacent. 

I am guilty of this. I go through phases, just like everyone else. 

It's just something to think about. 

Footloose and Fancy Free

Today I read a blog post on a friend's blog entitled "Singleness Is Not A Disease", all about how people who are single into their late twenties and early thirties are obsessed with getting married. I'll admit, people are constantly asking me when I'm getting married. It's a constant topic of conversations, and it got me thinking. 

When I was thirteen, I had my life all planned out. I was going to be married by 22 and start having kids by 26.

Looking back on this, I had no idea what I was planning. Ha! I love my life! I have friends a family that I love! A job I look forward to every day, and a church that's amazing! 

One day, I'll get married. I know that. But I also know that I don't need to obsess about it. 

God has put me where I am for a reason. The people that are in my life, are IN it for a reason. 

And at the end of the day, I have peace of mind, good friends, and Jesus.

I'm good.

These were my thoughts today. Hope you enjoyed.